Hmmm

I don't know how I'm feeling today, I ate what felt like a lot yesterday, but I had 3 points left over. I think that my problem this week has been a lack of motivation brought on my last week's gain. Ugh. I don't even like to type that. gain. This week I don't really expect a big loss, but I would like to get closer to where I was before the hell gain.
Today I'm going to the gym before my group meeting and I'm going to do a half hour on the elliptical and a half hour on the bike.
My food plan is
B- Cereal and Fat Free Cream cheese 4 points
S- Weight bar 2-3 points
S- special K crackers 2 points
D- 1 stuffed pepper 3 points
D- Refried beans and chips 6 points
S- Salad 2 points
= 20 Points for the day

I have to go to bed super early tonight. To work tomorrow.
Ugh I've got a busy day ahead.
And a busy week.

Losing my edge.

I haven't done that well this week. Well I mean I've been eating within my points each day (barely) but I haven't had as many left over. And I haven't been to the gym at all since Tuesday. I need to recommit myself to losing weight. I'll really start again tomorrow. I work until 1:30, then I'm going to the gym. Before then all I'm going to eat is cheerios and toast. I'll have eaten something like 5 points. Maybe 6 or 7. Okay. I'm going to try to crank out 5-10 pages of my cost paper before I hit the sheets tonight.

This week.

I haven't been doing great so far this week. Or even today. I've already eaten 10 points today and it's only 10:30 AM. I'll probably go to bed early though, but still. I've budgeted through when I come home at 7:30 or later. I'll probably have a frozen dinner tonight and maybe a bag of popcorn and an ice cream.

My job is going very poorly right now. I'm just so ready to be done. This week has just been really bad. I'm at the six month point where I just need to get out. I've applied to so many jobs that I can't even remember which ones are which. I really need a new position.

Food for Thursday
B- CC and Cereal 3
S- Fiber Bar 2
S Crackers and toppings 4
L- Turkey Sandwich 3
S- Pretzels and Salsa 3
D- Frozen Meal 6-7
S Popcorn 1
S Dessert 2
Total: 25 Points

Hello 2.6 pounds. I didn't miss you at all.

Then why are you back? I really can't deal with gaining. The thing is that I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't eat over my points ANY day at all. I went to the gym four times for at least 45 minutes each time. The gain HAS to be muscle. It just has to. I don't know what I'll do otherwise. I just need to keep on trucking this week.

No Subject

Well another weekend is over. I've tried several new Lean Cuisine flavors this weekend and some of them were absolutely amazing! I had an amazing time last night with Sydney and Kevin. It was potentially the last late night movie fest that the three of us will have which made it bittersweet for me at least. There are only 3 weekends left. I did okay food wise. Haven't been over 25 points since last Wednesday. I haven't been to the gym in 3 days. I was planning on going today, but The Wedding Date was on tv again. I didn't even end up watching it, I rented it on Amazon haha.
Food So Far Today
B- Egg Beater Sandwich 4
S- Ice Cream 2
L- lean Cuisine 4
S- Cake 1
S- Cake with Strawberries 3
Total So Far: 14
Food that I will probably eat before bed
Lean Cuisine 6
Popcorn 1
Cake with Strawberries 3
for a daily total of 24

Tomorrow I have to open at work so I'll bring something with me to eat there. Probably bread and I'll have a cream cheese packet which is 3 points. Then I'll pack stuff for a turkey melt with tomato which will be 4 points, and I'll also probably have a container of grapes for 3 points. I'm planning to go to the gym after class tomorrow then coming back here to do laundry. Since I'll only be at 10 points I'll be comfortable eating whatever I want for dinner. Maybe I'll make another pasta salad since that last one was so great!. Maybe I'll just have a pasta dinner? I don't know, I'll try to have something low sodium since it's the day before a weigh in.

It's going to be a crazy week. I have to work the next 6 days in a row. I'm half dreading it, half resigned to it. I realize that there's nothing that I can do . It's going to be a crazy 3 weeks until graduation/finals and I have SO much that I need to do but I just really want to get it all over with. I'll enjoy every free moment that I have. Like tomorrow after the gym, I'm not going to do any work while I'm doing laundry. And Tuesday, after work and before my WW meeting. Wednesday I'll have about an hour or so. Thursday I can sleep in, but other than that I have no time. Friday after work. Saturday after work. Maybe it won't be such a bad week after all :-D. Even though I have no idea when I'll get to the bank. I'll probably wait until I get last week's check too. Okay, time to chill and stop thinking until I have to go to bed.

home for the weekend.

And not feeling too great. I had a REALLY great day and only ate 15 points and had a great workout on Thursday. I probably should have eaten more given how much I worked out but I had some bad news and went to bed early. Yesterday I didn't go to the gym and I ate 25 points. Not so good, but still under my points limit. Today I'm not going to be able to go to the gym either and I set myself at 25 points. I did fine while my family was home but once they left I just wanted food. I'm in the process of cooking curried lentils for the first time. If I don't like them I'm going to be pretty sad because I already counted the points. I guess if I could just substitute a lean cuisine. Well whatever. Either way I'll stay under my points.
I'm going to watch the wedding date now. Hopefully my family will be back after it's over.

The Gym

I used to hate it when people said that they were going to the gym. It made me feel like a layabout, which of course I was. Well I joined Planet Fitness this week and I've gone the past 2 days. I feel different. (Well except right now haha my blood sugar has plummeted) I feel like the person that I want to be. I can't remember how many calories I burned yesterday, but today I burned over 400. I was there for a little over an hour and burned 300 cals on the elliptical and 150ish on the bike. No wonder I feel exhausted haha. I think that I'm going to take it a little easier tomorrow, My knee was hurting a little and the last thing I need is to get injured.
So far today I've eaten:
B- Egg Beater Sandwich 3
L- Roast Beef Sandwich 4
S 100 Calorie Cheezits 2
S 1 Can green beans 1
And now that my pasta is finished cooking I'm going to eat a serving of pasta salad which I think I figured out to be 4 points. Yummmm!