But I just wanted to do a quickie update. I ate pretty poorly yesterday, I mean I stayed within my points and everything but idk. I just felt gross after what I ate, and that's a feeling that I haven't felt in awhile. I didn't eat lunch and just grabbed some grapes and baked lays. It's choices like that that screw my days up. I had a snack of pretzels and salsa when I got home from class and then I made 2 servings of whole wheat pasta and had one serving of sauce and probably too much cheese. The sauce I got was very low point, it has one point whereas most sauces have two. I also had too many crystal light drinks so I had to count them. I need to get back on with water.
Weigh in is this afternoon. Step-mommy dearest is supposed to be meeting me there, so that is an interesting fact. I'm doing my usual weigh day routine. I ate a WW bagel with 2 servings of Cream cheese for breakfast at about 7:30, I'll eat my lunch of a sandwich in the car on the way to work at around 11:30. I'll stop drinking liquids by 2:30 and wait until after weighing in to start drinking water again. I can only pray for a loss. I wasn't at all nervous yesterday but today I'm starting to feel anxious especially after my 'binge' last night. I know that it was nothing compared so some of my former binge-isodes but anyway. I did well this weekend. Hopefully I lost something. I don't care whether it's big or small! Actually I'm hoping for a big loss. But a small one might remotivate me. Okay speaking of motivation I really need to finish this paper!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Week from hell.
I have no idea how I'm going to stay On plan this week. This is my week right here
Monday
Now-2:45 Homework
2:45-4 Class
^Not too bad
Tuesday
8-12 Writing an ethics paper
12-4:30 Work
5-6 WW Meeting
7-9:30 Class
^Worse but not as bad as possible
Wednesday
7-2 Work
2-9:30 Class
^Yes, I have a 15 hour day (More if you include drive times)
Then Thursday and Friday I have crappy work shifts but nothing else. Fridays is at least 7-3:30, so I'm not going to leave my bed from Friday at 4 until next Monday. (Unless something fantastic happens with weekend plans) Today I should do okay, as long as I make lunch before I leave here. I'm not really hungry, but I really should be.
I know that I'll make it through the week. I always do, but I'm just a little worried that I won't do well. I need a long break (ironic considering that break was last week). Ugh.
Monday
Now-2:45 Homework
2:45-4 Class
^Not too bad
Tuesday
8-12 Writing an ethics paper
12-4:30 Work
5-6 WW Meeting
7-9:30 Class
^Worse but not as bad as possible
Wednesday
7-2 Work
2-9:30 Class
^Yes, I have a 15 hour day (More if you include drive times)
Then Thursday and Friday I have crappy work shifts but nothing else. Fridays is at least 7-3:30, so I'm not going to leave my bed from Friday at 4 until next Monday. (Unless something fantastic happens with weekend plans) Today I should do okay, as long as I make lunch before I leave here. I'm not really hungry, but I really should be.
I know that I'll make it through the week. I always do, but I'm just a little worried that I won't do well. I need a long break (ironic considering that break was last week). Ugh.
Monday March 30
I feel a little sicky this morning. I had a touch of the flu last night and it was quite unpleasant. I'm still feeling a little bad from it and I hope that the unpleasant symptoms don't resurface. I really need to shower and go to school to do a bunch of assignments. It's going to be a really rough week. I have several large assignments due and I have only one shift at work that I'm not dreading, and that's tomorrow so that means that I have 3 long shifts in a row. At least my closing shift on Thursday is short.
Well this blog isn't to complain about my life so I'm going to mention my food choices.
As usual I ate way to much last night. I don't know what the deal is with me and eating at night. I mean I NEVER go over my points, but I don't know if my time of day choices are going to sabotage my weight loss efforts. I guess we'll see how my weigh in goes this week. I am not hungry right now but I know that I need to eat breakfast soon. I should try to get going into portland by ten-ish I guess. I can bring my breakfast in the car with me. Ugh. I'm having a really hard time concentrating on this blog this morning. So anyway breakfast is going to be an egg and cheese on a WW bagel for 3 points. Lunch will be a turkey sandwich with tomato and mustard (3) along with multigrain crackers and cheese (3). Dinner will be rice and chicken (5) and a salad (1) potentially with some broccoli (1). If I must absolutely have a snack I have skinny cow ice cream bars with chocolate dipped for one point. I WILL NOT snack too badly for dinner. As much as I want to I will have to remember that weigh in is tomorrow and one bad day before it can ruin an entire weeks worth of hard work. Well as desperately as I want to lay in bed, I promised myself that I'd walk the backbay before doing my homework.
Well this blog isn't to complain about my life so I'm going to mention my food choices.
As usual I ate way to much last night. I don't know what the deal is with me and eating at night. I mean I NEVER go over my points, but I don't know if my time of day choices are going to sabotage my weight loss efforts. I guess we'll see how my weigh in goes this week. I am not hungry right now but I know that I need to eat breakfast soon. I should try to get going into portland by ten-ish I guess. I can bring my breakfast in the car with me. Ugh. I'm having a really hard time concentrating on this blog this morning. So anyway breakfast is going to be an egg and cheese on a WW bagel for 3 points. Lunch will be a turkey sandwich with tomato and mustard (3) along with multigrain crackers and cheese (3). Dinner will be rice and chicken (5) and a salad (1) potentially with some broccoli (1). If I must absolutely have a snack I have skinny cow ice cream bars with chocolate dipped for one point. I WILL NOT snack too badly for dinner. As much as I want to I will have to remember that weigh in is tomorrow and one bad day before it can ruin an entire weeks worth of hard work. Well as desperately as I want to lay in bed, I promised myself that I'd walk the backbay before doing my homework.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Seriously full.
I am so full right now. I know that when I'm finished writing this entry I'll be hungry again but right this second I know that I ate too much. For my dinner I had a small salad consisting of one tomato and some lettuce, and peas mixed with hot dogs. Ugh. Two minutes later and I'm still satisfied but not full. I don't know what to do. I hate my body sometimes, it's never comfortable for long. Okay, I'm going to read for awhile until the hunger overtakes my body again.
Weekend Love
So here it is, Sunday, and I haven't blogged since Friday. Seems like forever! Well considering I have 3 days to cover, I'll start with Friday
Friday
Well I left for a party at around 1. The party was up north, about 3 hours from here. I did a lot of stuff before I actually hit the road. I went to the bank, then to a bunch of stores. I bought a new purse and sunglasses at TJ Maxx. Then I went to the mall and checked out Lane Bryant, which I thought might have some slimming clothes. I couldn't even buy anything, the things were just so strange. The sizes were not normal. I'm sure its to make heavier women less embarrassed about the fact that they wear size 20 or whatever. After Lane Bryant, I decided to go to less lame stores. I went into H&M because I knew that Forever 21 has too small of sizes. H&M doesn't carry anything bigger than a large, but their large is big enough for me to squeeze into. I didn't end up buying anything though because nothing fit me just right. So after H&M I decided to get gas before hitting the road. I went into the gas station after getting the gas, to pick up some snacks for the road. I selected a cherry diet coke, a little container of cheerios, and a pickle from a bag. I ate the pickle and drank the coke, saving the cheerios for later. I then drove up half way and stopped at an Old Navy where I tried on several pairs of jeans. The ones I bought were a 16 and oh so nice! I also bought some socks there. Then I drove approximately another 20 minutes and got off an exit where I knew that there was a Super Walmart. I selected a white zip up top, and track pants. Then I chose some books that I have been wishing to read. Then I went into the food section. I had a hard time passing up the premade sandwiches. I just love them but it wasn't worth it as the night still held some uncertainty and I wanted points left over. I got apples and caramel sauce that were 100 calories and 2 points. I also got some powdered drink mix that is sugar free. I drove for about an hour and got off the exit where I found a subway and got a turkey sandwich. It was potentially the worst service I'd ever gotten at a subway and it took forever, but the sandwich was decent. Then I drove the remaining twenty minutes of the journey and my brake light came on. What a bad experience. Nothing actually happened but I was nervous. My friends and I went to the grocery store to get margarita mixers and snacks before proceeding on to the party. The party was okay, it was mostly couples though. I got exceedingly drunk on a small amount of liquor. It was at this point that I ate the cheerios and nothing more. An old friend complimented me on my appearance which made me very happy. And then my friend who I was visiting and I stayed up until 3 talking about weight loss (she has recently lost at least 80 pounds).
Saturday
Well I slept late and was a little hung over so we went to breakfast in their version of a cafeteria. I got a serving of cheerios and an orange, along with a 10 calorie Vitamin water (!!!). I ate it and then right after I left because I wanted to get home so that my dad could take a look at my brakes. The drive home was nerve wracking and I had no snacks. I was absolutely starving when I got to my dads and unfortunately my nephew was there. I'm not crazy about my step family. I ate a lean cuisine and went up to my room where I read a book and rested and started a new book. I went downstairs to eat dinner and I made a can of soup which was so disgusting. I also had 2 servings of pretzels and salsa. I also had an ice cream sandwich (skinny cow). To drink I had powdered drink mixes which were great. Then I was so tired that I went to bed.
Sunday (today)
Well this morning I woke up late, at about 10, to a text from a friend who I haven't seen in 6 months begging me to meet with her as shes having a crisis. I got up and we went to Waterways where she ate breakfast and I sipped on a sugarfree red bull. We talked for about an hour and a half. She had to work and I wanted to get some grocery shopping done. I did so and bought some delicious food. I got some weight watchers bagels and weight watchers cream cheese. As well as some new egg beaters and hot dogs. I don't think that I'll be hungry any time soon. (Well I'm hungry now haha) So far today I've eaten a WW bagel with pb (4 points), crackers and soft cheese (3), a hot dog with mustard and no bun (1), an egg beater sandwich on low cal bread (3), and a skinny ice cream bar (1). I'm trying to think of something to eat for dinner. I'm so so so hungry that it's completely ridiculous. I think I'm going to have rice and peas along with salad. before dinner I'm going to probably have bread with cream cheese. Or crackers with cream cheese. I think I'll eat those right now so that I'm not starving when I decide what to eat.
Well I'm going to have the cream cheese snack and see what strikes my fancy for dinner. I might not even have anything that I have though of. Ooo maybe a boca chikn patty with tomatoes and mustard on low cal bread. Although I really want rice. I think I'll have rice.
Friday
Well I left for a party at around 1. The party was up north, about 3 hours from here. I did a lot of stuff before I actually hit the road. I went to the bank, then to a bunch of stores. I bought a new purse and sunglasses at TJ Maxx. Then I went to the mall and checked out Lane Bryant, which I thought might have some slimming clothes. I couldn't even buy anything, the things were just so strange. The sizes were not normal. I'm sure its to make heavier women less embarrassed about the fact that they wear size 20 or whatever. After Lane Bryant, I decided to go to less lame stores. I went into H&M because I knew that Forever 21 has too small of sizes. H&M doesn't carry anything bigger than a large, but their large is big enough for me to squeeze into. I didn't end up buying anything though because nothing fit me just right. So after H&M I decided to get gas before hitting the road. I went into the gas station after getting the gas, to pick up some snacks for the road. I selected a cherry diet coke, a little container of cheerios, and a pickle from a bag. I ate the pickle and drank the coke, saving the cheerios for later. I then drove up half way and stopped at an Old Navy where I tried on several pairs of jeans. The ones I bought were a 16 and oh so nice! I also bought some socks there. Then I drove approximately another 20 minutes and got off an exit where I knew that there was a Super Walmart. I selected a white zip up top, and track pants. Then I chose some books that I have been wishing to read. Then I went into the food section. I had a hard time passing up the premade sandwiches. I just love them but it wasn't worth it as the night still held some uncertainty and I wanted points left over. I got apples and caramel sauce that were 100 calories and 2 points. I also got some powdered drink mix that is sugar free. I drove for about an hour and got off the exit where I found a subway and got a turkey sandwich. It was potentially the worst service I'd ever gotten at a subway and it took forever, but the sandwich was decent. Then I drove the remaining twenty minutes of the journey and my brake light came on. What a bad experience. Nothing actually happened but I was nervous. My friends and I went to the grocery store to get margarita mixers and snacks before proceeding on to the party. The party was okay, it was mostly couples though. I got exceedingly drunk on a small amount of liquor. It was at this point that I ate the cheerios and nothing more. An old friend complimented me on my appearance which made me very happy. And then my friend who I was visiting and I stayed up until 3 talking about weight loss (she has recently lost at least 80 pounds).
Saturday
Well I slept late and was a little hung over so we went to breakfast in their version of a cafeteria. I got a serving of cheerios and an orange, along with a 10 calorie Vitamin water (!!!). I ate it and then right after I left because I wanted to get home so that my dad could take a look at my brakes. The drive home was nerve wracking and I had no snacks. I was absolutely starving when I got to my dads and unfortunately my nephew was there. I'm not crazy about my step family. I ate a lean cuisine and went up to my room where I read a book and rested and started a new book. I went downstairs to eat dinner and I made a can of soup which was so disgusting. I also had 2 servings of pretzels and salsa. I also had an ice cream sandwich (skinny cow). To drink I had powdered drink mixes which were great. Then I was so tired that I went to bed.
Sunday (today)
Well this morning I woke up late, at about 10, to a text from a friend who I haven't seen in 6 months begging me to meet with her as shes having a crisis. I got up and we went to Waterways where she ate breakfast and I sipped on a sugarfree red bull. We talked for about an hour and a half. She had to work and I wanted to get some grocery shopping done. I did so and bought some delicious food. I got some weight watchers bagels and weight watchers cream cheese. As well as some new egg beaters and hot dogs. I don't think that I'll be hungry any time soon. (Well I'm hungry now haha) So far today I've eaten a WW bagel with pb (4 points), crackers and soft cheese (3), a hot dog with mustard and no bun (1), an egg beater sandwich on low cal bread (3), and a skinny ice cream bar (1). I'm trying to think of something to eat for dinner. I'm so so so hungry that it's completely ridiculous. I think I'm going to have rice and peas along with salad. before dinner I'm going to probably have bread with cream cheese. Or crackers with cream cheese. I think I'll eat those right now so that I'm not starving when I decide what to eat.
Well I'm going to have the cream cheese snack and see what strikes my fancy for dinner. I might not even have anything that I have though of. Ooo maybe a boca chikn patty with tomatoes and mustard on low cal bread. Although I really want rice. I think I'll have rice.
Friday, March 27, 2009
As of right now...
I haven't had any points yet today. I'm going to have a snack once I'm done writing this, of a salad with tomatos and lettuce. I'll count it as 1 point. Then at noon I'm going to have a 3 point can of soup, and a hot dog on bread for 5 points. Then at 3-4 whenever I leave Portland, I'll have a frappucino for 2 points. Mocha light with sugar free syrup. For dinner in bangor I'll have a subway sandwich and baked lays for 7 points.
At that point I'll have 15 each way. I'm planning on having 8 points worth of liquor, and I'll premix those drinks before I even leave my dorm. That will leave me with 7 points for snacks. I'll bring 3 100 calorie packs with me in case if I get hungry.
Then I'll attempt to have 5 points left each day for the rest of the week. I'm not too excited and I don't know why I agreed with this trip. I'll just contrive to 'pass out' early if I'm having that bad of a time. As long as I'm drunk it won't be too bad. Wow that doesn't make me sound like an alchy or anything...
As long as I'm really good for the rest of the week, I hope that this doesn't screw up my weigh in. And if it does... I just won't do it again until maintenence.
At that point I'll have 15 each way. I'm planning on having 8 points worth of liquor, and I'll premix those drinks before I even leave my dorm. That will leave me with 7 points for snacks. I'll bring 3 100 calorie packs with me in case if I get hungry.
Then I'll attempt to have 5 points left each day for the rest of the week. I'm not too excited and I don't know why I agreed with this trip. I'll just contrive to 'pass out' early if I'm having that bad of a time. As long as I'm drunk it won't be too bad. Wow that doesn't make me sound like an alchy or anything...
As long as I'm really good for the rest of the week, I hope that this doesn't screw up my weigh in. And if it does... I just won't do it again until maintenence.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Agent Crane... Licensed to charm
As usual I'm watching Frasier. I'm also in the midst of a fabulous Amanda Quick novel. I did very well today. I had an egg white sandwich without cheese for breakfast, a turkey sandwich with tomato and mustard with half a serving of crackers for lunch. I ate the other half of the serving of crackers with salsa for an afternoon snack. I almost had cream cheese with the crackers, and I'm so proud of myself that I didn't. For dinner I had a smart ones mac and cheese mixed with frozen peas and 2 cut up hot dogs. For a snack I had a sandwich round with one hot dog and one half with peanut butter. I counted it as 3 points. I also had a salad with fat free italian dressing and an iced coffee with skim milk. I counted the salad as 2 points and the milk as 1. Both could probably have been zero but I'd rather over compensate than under. I have 8 points left and I'm considering a 100 calorie bag of popcorn and nothing else. I want to have a really great day today, because tomorrow I'm going to a party.
I'm going to save 6 points for liquor, I'm going to portion it out and count it first thing in the morning. Thats 3 drinks. I'm going to eat sparingly during the day, and then bring my own snacks. I'm also going to use 2 points on a light frappucino with a sugar free flavor shot. For breakfast I'm going to have a sandwich with cheese and tomato and maybe a hot dog. 3 points. Lunch will be small. I don't know what yet, probably a progresso soup. During dinner, I'll be on the road, so I'll stop at subway and have a small veggie sub with some sort of chip or cracker and a diet soda. That will probably be 7 points. That brings me to 26. I'll bring 2 snacks that are 2 points apiece. Maybe 2 100 calorie packs. I'm not as much of an eater when I drink as soe people are.
My timeline is as follows:
B: ??? Whenever I wake up, if before 10, then a 3 point sandwich, if after 10, just a tomato sandwich for 1 point.
L: 12:00-1:00 Progresso beef soup 3 points
Sbux: 4ish, before I leave portland Mocha light 2 points
S: In bangor, Small veggie sub, with baked chips 7-9 points OR small wendys chili for 4 points and baked plain chips for 3
P: 3 premixed drinks for 2 points each 6 points
= 23 at most.
= 19 if best plan
I think that I'll have to look up subway's values again to see what the most reasonable assumption is. I'll bring some food with me. I think I'm leaving on Saturday, so I won't have to worry too much about that stuff. I really ought to go buy my liquor now, so that I can portion it out before I leave my dorm room. I'm a little nervous, but as I've been at this for nearly a month, I think that I'm a little more in control than I was before.
Okay, I'm running to the grocery store to buy some boozeee! I'm pretty excited, but nervous at the same time.
I'm going to save 6 points for liquor, I'm going to portion it out and count it first thing in the morning. Thats 3 drinks. I'm going to eat sparingly during the day, and then bring my own snacks. I'm also going to use 2 points on a light frappucino with a sugar free flavor shot. For breakfast I'm going to have a sandwich with cheese and tomato and maybe a hot dog. 3 points. Lunch will be small. I don't know what yet, probably a progresso soup. During dinner, I'll be on the road, so I'll stop at subway and have a small veggie sub with some sort of chip or cracker and a diet soda. That will probably be 7 points. That brings me to 26. I'll bring 2 snacks that are 2 points apiece. Maybe 2 100 calorie packs. I'm not as much of an eater when I drink as soe people are.
My timeline is as follows:
B: ??? Whenever I wake up, if before 10, then a 3 point sandwich, if after 10, just a tomato sandwich for 1 point.
L: 12:00-1:00 Progresso beef soup 3 points
Sbux: 4ish, before I leave portland Mocha light 2 points
S: In bangor, Small veggie sub, with baked chips 7-9 points OR small wendys chili for 4 points and baked plain chips for 3
P: 3 premixed drinks for 2 points each 6 points
= 23 at most.
= 19 if best plan
I think that I'll have to look up subway's values again to see what the most reasonable assumption is. I'll bring some food with me. I think I'm leaving on Saturday, so I won't have to worry too much about that stuff. I really ought to go buy my liquor now, so that I can portion it out before I leave my dorm room. I'm a little nervous, but as I've been at this for nearly a month, I think that I'm a little more in control than I was before.
Okay, I'm running to the grocery store to buy some boozeee! I'm pretty excited, but nervous at the same time.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Concentration.
Well after my huge loss yesterday I'm super determined to keep on keepin on with my diet. I desperately want to eat everything in sight and I'm having a really hard time resisting. On top of everything, I have to work 8 hours tomorrow. It's been awhile since I had to do that long of a shift. And since I'll be closing, all the left over food will be up for grabs. Today we had these ultra delicious pb brownies. It was all I could do to avoid them. Just thinking about them makes me want to eat my last chocolate cake.
Anyway; I've used up 12 points today and I have 18 left. I'll probably eat dinner at 6? I have a couple of things that I'm considering. I have a can of beef soup thats three points for the whole can, and I bought another healthy choice frozen meal which is 5 points. I really could have both, but I feel like I'll be too much of a pig if I do that. I'm so tired. I'm going to take a little nap. I'm not sure what my problem is, I think I'm not getting enough protein.
Anyway; I've used up 12 points today and I have 18 left. I'll probably eat dinner at 6? I have a couple of things that I'm considering. I have a can of beef soup thats three points for the whole can, and I bought another healthy choice frozen meal which is 5 points. I really could have both, but I feel like I'll be too much of a pig if I do that. I'm so tired. I'm going to take a little nap. I'm not sure what my problem is, I think I'm not getting enough protein.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Happy!
Well I had weigh in today and I lost 3.6 pounds!!!! 3.6!!! I was hoping for 1.8, I really wanted to get to my first 5, well clearly I managed to do it! I'm so excited, but at the same time, I'm really nervous that it was just some sort of fluctuation and by next week I'll have gained it all back. I don't even know how I'm doing. I am always within my points, I never use them all, but I still feel like I have awful eating habits. Maybe I should aim to only use 25 points per day every day. I think I'm going to do one more week the way I'm going, and see what happens. I'm going to really try to force myself to do my workout dvd three times this week. Well, I can't really think of anything else to say, but I just wanted to blog about my loss.
O/T I seriously hate Mel from frasier. Niles' second wife. She's such a crazy bitch. lol I watch that show too much!
O/T I seriously hate Mel from frasier. Niles' second wife. She's such a crazy bitch. lol I watch that show too much!
Monday, March 23, 2009
Maybe break isn't such a good thing.
I've been looking forward to break for so long and now that it's here, it's wreaking havoc on my eating. I try to save my points through the whole day to eat a lot in the evening. Why am I so hungry. It feels like legitimate hunger to me, but I'm so bad at telling when I'm seriously hungry from when I just want to eat. For me it's not boredom, or depression, I just really want to eat. I've already eaten tons today, but I have 11 points left and I want to use them. I just ate a salad with grilled chicken which was really great. I wanted to count that as an appetizer, but since it filled me up, theres no real reason to eat my planned dinner or either a smart ones or a progresso soup. I have 2 soups that I wanted to try. I guess I could just wait and have some popcorn or an ice cream sandwich later. If I'm not hungry for dinner by 8, I'll use that plan. If I get hungry before 8, I'll eat my dinner, but NO snacks at all. I have weigh in tomorrow and as usual, I'm terrified. I just KNOW that I gained this week. And I'm going the later weigh in which means that I'll have to eat super lightly all day until 5:30. I'll have an egg white breakfast sandwich for breakfast as soon as I wake up, and I'll have some chicken, rice and frozen peas for lunch before I leave for work. At work, before 3, I'll eat a fiber bar. After that nothing until weigh in at 5ish. Maybe I'll have something different for lunch, soup perhaps. With no crackers. With all that, I'll be at 14. For dinner I might have a smart ones with frozen food. Or actually I'll probaby have the rice, chicken, and peas for dinner. I'm also considering subway, although thats pretty high in points. If I get the wrap it'll be 11. I really need to think about it. So my lunch tomorrow will be a sandwich or pita, with a small side salad. The points value will be 5. I don't know. I'm just really worried about weigh in. Maybe I should go to the morning meeting. Just get it out of the way. I know that I can't keep switching back and forth. I guess if I eat a normal amount tomorrow, then it'll normalize weighing for next week? Okay. Well I guess I have to think about it.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Sunday
Well today I worked from 8-2. I got a new book in the mail which I haven't been able to convince myself to read. I've eaten fairly well so far. For breakfast I had my egg white sandwich which was okay. I had an apple at work for a snack. Then when I got back here I had a Smart Ones Mac n Cheese mixed with frozen peas. It was good and filling. About an hour after that, I had a yoplait lite. I've used up 14 points and I have 16 left. I want another smart ones for dinner, lasanga, with salad, and bread. But I don't have any idea if I really want it or not. I'll check the sodium content and if the two frozen meals don't get me over 60% then I'll eat it. If so, I'll have some brown rice, a salad, and some chicken. Actually that sounds amazing. Maybe I'll have that instead, even if it is more labor intensive. Both dinners are approximately 10 points. I'll have one post dinner snack as well, popcorn, or cheese and crackers. I have had ice cream sandwiches the past 2-3 days so even though it sounds amazing, I'll avoid those. I'll probably have popcorn because even though it's higher point, it's more food.
Tomorrow, I have to work early in the morning, and then bring my friend to the bus station. I'll have an egg white sandwich for breakfast. I'll bring a snack of cheerios to work, and have some milk with them. I will probably have a late lunch when I get back from the bus station at about 3. I'm considering having a starbucks frappucino tomorrow when I go to the bank after the station. I think that theres one that is only 2 points. I might really need one, because I'll be hungry. Plus I haven't had a real treat in almost 3 weeks. I mean I've had ice cream sandwiches and plenty of healthy foods, but a real treat would make me feel more like a normal person. Well, I'm starting to get hungry so I'll start on dinner. I have so much to say, but I can't think about it.
Tomorrow, I have to work early in the morning, and then bring my friend to the bus station. I'll have an egg white sandwich for breakfast. I'll bring a snack of cheerios to work, and have some milk with them. I will probably have a late lunch when I get back from the bus station at about 3. I'm considering having a starbucks frappucino tomorrow when I go to the bank after the station. I think that theres one that is only 2 points. I might really need one, because I'll be hungry. Plus I haven't had a real treat in almost 3 weeks. I mean I've had ice cream sandwiches and plenty of healthy foods, but a real treat would make me feel more like a normal person. Well, I'm starting to get hungry so I'll start on dinner. I have so much to say, but I can't think about it.
Just a quickie
I worked at waterways this morning and didn't eat anything there!!! Not even a taste of smoothie or bagel! I ate a breakfast sandwich (egg white, low calorie bread, cheese), and an apple. Now I'm going to eat a smart ones mac and cheese mixed with frozen peas. I'm starved and the microwave just beeped. I'll make a real update later
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Edit:
I managed to do part of my Prevention dvd. I didn't get as much done as I would have liked, but I feel pretty decent about myself. The cardio sculpt portion made me feel pretty good. But now I wish I'd finished it. I might go to the track tomorrow before work and see if I can jog a mile. I'd feel amazing about myself if I could do that. If I can't get myself up early tomorrow, I'll try to finish the pilates section of the dvd tomorrow. The cardio sculpt if clearly the most difficult portion which must be why it's first, but one of these days I'll do the kickbox. I'd say I did 15 minutes of high intensity exercise. Thats 3 activity points!!!!!
Obsession.
I'm obsessed with food. Eating it. Enjoying it. Counting it. I eat all the time, and I feel like crap. I hate exercise. I just feel so wasteful of every opportunity that I'm given to lose weight. I need a long trip to a weight loss spa. Today I've already eaten a fiber bar, a roll with cream cheese, an egg white and cheese sandwich, and a chicken salad sandwich, and a yoplait light. Both sandwiches were 'snacks'. At least I ate them this afternoon instead of waiting until tonight to eat all my points.
I have something like 15 points left for the day. For dinner I will probably have stir fry and salad. The stir fry will have 3 points for the rice, 2 for the chicken, and 2 for the peas, and 1 for the teryaki sauce. That is 8 points, leaving me with 7. The salad will probably be 2 points for the dressing, leaving me with five. I will have either an ice cream sandwich, or cheese and crackers.
Since my roomie went off on break, I'm going to do my Prevention exercise dvd. I'm going to do it today, tomorrow, and monday. At least I'll meet one of my goals for the week. Next week I desperately want to stop snacking.
I have something like 15 points left for the day. For dinner I will probably have stir fry and salad. The stir fry will have 3 points for the rice, 2 for the chicken, and 2 for the peas, and 1 for the teryaki sauce. That is 8 points, leaving me with 7. The salad will probably be 2 points for the dressing, leaving me with five. I will have either an ice cream sandwich, or cheese and crackers.
Since my roomie went off on break, I'm going to do my Prevention exercise dvd. I'm going to do it today, tomorrow, and monday. At least I'll meet one of my goals for the week. Next week I desperately want to stop snacking.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Frustration.
I'm getting really frustrated with myself. Even though my binges are much smaller than they were a month ago, I'm still really unhappy with my eating habits. Today, I left my lunch in the car by accident. I had a glass of milk instead, which didn't fill me up and I felt really sick. When I got back from work, 2 hours ago, I ate some cheese and crackers (a planned snack), then I was still hungry so I made a salad with tomatoes carrots and turkey. Then I was still 'hungry' so I ate my planned dinner which was a Smart Ones frozen meal. Now I'm still hungry/ want to eat. It can't be hunger after all I've eaten today. I'm worried that I'm screwing up my metabolism with these crazy eating habits I'm developing. I still have 12 points left after all that. I have 2 single servings of frozen peas that I really want to eat. I should probably eat before 9, as I have to go to bed at 10:30. I'm going to need to do some grocery shopping tomorrow, or else it's going to be a bad weekend.
I would like to get some lettuce, frozen meals, brown rice, and grilled chicken. I really enjoy veggie filled stir fry with rice and chicken and it fills me up enough that I'm not thinking about food constantly like I have been. My habits this week have been so reminiscent of my binging days that I'm really starting to worry. My goal this week was to exercise 3 days and I haven't even done one yet. I think that I will have to start that tomorrow. My roommate is leaving for vacation, so I can do my dvd daily. Then it's only 6 more weeks until I can move home, where I can do it as much as I want. I'm so excited to have the room to myself for a whole week! Even with working and dieting, I think it will still be a fun week.
Fridays Food so far
B- Smart Ones Breakfast Sandwich (4)
L- 1 c. skim milk with sugar free almond syrup (2)
S- Babybel light cheese and special K crackers (3)
S- Tomato, Carrot, Turkey salad with ff italian (3)
D- Smart Ones Fettuccine Alfredo (6)
Which comes to 18 points used, and 12 points remaining for the day. I won't use them all. I never do.
Possible remaining points possibilities
1 bag frozen peas and teryaki sauce (2)
Cottage Cheese 1 c. (2)
Cheese and crackers (3)
Ice Cream Sandwich (3)
Popcorn (4)
I shouldn't eat all of these (in fact I can't) but I could probably have 2-3, which makes for just as bad of a binge, in my opinion, as if I'd eaten an entire box of macaroni and cheese, 2 servings of cottage cheese and bacon, and breadsticks and butter. And keep on adding to that list. That would be a small binge for me.
On a happier note: I got my first weight loss compliment today. A coworker who I don't see said 'you're losing weight' and I said ' not much yet', and she responded that it was noticable. I really don't think that 3.2 pounds is noticeable, but it feels good to hear it. I can't wait until everyone notices. I don't want to see my mom and sister until I've lost 20 pounds. If I don't go home for Easter, it's a distinct possibility. 10% was my graduation goal, but I'm realizing how unrealistic it is. I'm going to shoot for 20% by the day I move into an apartment (sometime around August). It's about 5 months from now, and 20% is 42 pounds. thats something like 8 pounds a month, which will be hard, but not impossible. Even if I can't do it, I'll be much lighter then than I am now. Okay, I know it's early to start looking but I'm going to 'apartment hunt' now. It's a fun past time.
I would like to get some lettuce, frozen meals, brown rice, and grilled chicken. I really enjoy veggie filled stir fry with rice and chicken and it fills me up enough that I'm not thinking about food constantly like I have been. My habits this week have been so reminiscent of my binging days that I'm really starting to worry. My goal this week was to exercise 3 days and I haven't even done one yet. I think that I will have to start that tomorrow. My roommate is leaving for vacation, so I can do my dvd daily. Then it's only 6 more weeks until I can move home, where I can do it as much as I want. I'm so excited to have the room to myself for a whole week! Even with working and dieting, I think it will still be a fun week.
Fridays Food so far
B- Smart Ones Breakfast Sandwich (4)
L- 1 c. skim milk with sugar free almond syrup (2)
S- Babybel light cheese and special K crackers (3)
S- Tomato, Carrot, Turkey salad with ff italian (3)
D- Smart Ones Fettuccine Alfredo (6)
Which comes to 18 points used, and 12 points remaining for the day. I won't use them all. I never do.
Possible remaining points possibilities
1 bag frozen peas and teryaki sauce (2)
Cottage Cheese 1 c. (2)
Cheese and crackers (3)
Ice Cream Sandwich (3)
Popcorn (4)
I shouldn't eat all of these (in fact I can't) but I could probably have 2-3, which makes for just as bad of a binge, in my opinion, as if I'd eaten an entire box of macaroni and cheese, 2 servings of cottage cheese and bacon, and breadsticks and butter. And keep on adding to that list. That would be a small binge for me.
On a happier note: I got my first weight loss compliment today. A coworker who I don't see said 'you're losing weight' and I said ' not much yet', and she responded that it was noticable. I really don't think that 3.2 pounds is noticeable, but it feels good to hear it. I can't wait until everyone notices. I don't want to see my mom and sister until I've lost 20 pounds. If I don't go home for Easter, it's a distinct possibility. 10% was my graduation goal, but I'm realizing how unrealistic it is. I'm going to shoot for 20% by the day I move into an apartment (sometime around August). It's about 5 months from now, and 20% is 42 pounds. thats something like 8 pounds a month, which will be hard, but not impossible. Even if I can't do it, I'll be much lighter then than I am now. Okay, I know it's early to start looking but I'm going to 'apartment hunt' now. It's a fun past time.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Apparently having the same epiphancy as everyone else.
I was all excited to blog about something cool that happened today, and I got on the 3fc forum, and it seemed like everyone was saying the same thing. Oh well, it happened to me too.
So I packed my daily food, same as normal, sandwich fixings, a fiberone bar, and some crackers and cheese. I ate breakfast pretty late, actually I woke up pretty late, so I wasn't really hungry until lunch at 2:30. I planned to have a snack at 4:30. I was really craving milk, so I had a glass with sugar free hazelnut syrup, and that filled me up. I didn't have either of the snacks that I brought with me to work today. I ate the cheese and crackers when I got back here though, because my roommate is asleep and I really can't deal with cooking when she's doing that. I figure I'll be up until midnight at least, so eating dinner at 9, really isn't a big deal. Plus I have 18 points left for the day.
I'm so happy about the fact that the hunger is diminishing so rapidly. When I first started blogging, I had to eat 2-3 fiber one bars a day, just to stay ahead of hunger. Now, I have 3 boxes of bars that are barely diminished. And Ice Cream sandwiches that I've only had one of. It's dangerous for me to have all of this food about, but I'm confident that I'll be able to avert any binges that might occur. I can't believe that I'm someone who gets full from eating a sandwich. I've also drank a lot of water today.
Dinner plan is brown rice, and frozen peas with teryaki sauce (6), lettuce and tomato and carrot salad with fat free italian dressing (2). I might add some turkey to the salad. I don't feel like I'm getting enough protein. If I add turkey thats 2 more points, leaving me with 8 for the day. I'll have a snack (IF hungry) of popcorn, cheese and crackers, or cottage cheese. No matter which I select, I'll still have points left over.
If the weather cooperates tomorrow, I'm going to try and start the c25k program. I really need to work my exercise in, and standing up for 6 hours doesn't cut it. I do know that my body should be burning more calories than it takes in, which I think that I am, but exercise is a good idea, even for those who aren't trying to lose weight.
Food Plan for Friday
B- Egg white omelet with a LITTLE cheese (5)
2 slices low calorie bread (1)
1 orange (1 or 0)
L- Turkey Sandwich (3)
D- Progresso Soup (3) and Saltines (2)
OR Smart Ones Fetticini Alfredo (6) and Frozen Broccoli (1)
S- Cheese and Crackers (3), Cottage Cheese (2), Yogurt (2) (only if hungry)
D- Skinny Cow Ice Cream Sandwich (3)
One more possible dinner combo is the Subway Fresh Fit meal. But I think I'm going to save those for the weekdays where I don't have enough time to pack food, but I need a meal.
I'm probably going to have to do some grocery shopping for this weekend. I don't have much food left, which is lame because I already spent so much this week. Being healthy costs!
So I packed my daily food, same as normal, sandwich fixings, a fiberone bar, and some crackers and cheese. I ate breakfast pretty late, actually I woke up pretty late, so I wasn't really hungry until lunch at 2:30. I planned to have a snack at 4:30. I was really craving milk, so I had a glass with sugar free hazelnut syrup, and that filled me up. I didn't have either of the snacks that I brought with me to work today. I ate the cheese and crackers when I got back here though, because my roommate is asleep and I really can't deal with cooking when she's doing that. I figure I'll be up until midnight at least, so eating dinner at 9, really isn't a big deal. Plus I have 18 points left for the day.
I'm so happy about the fact that the hunger is diminishing so rapidly. When I first started blogging, I had to eat 2-3 fiber one bars a day, just to stay ahead of hunger. Now, I have 3 boxes of bars that are barely diminished. And Ice Cream sandwiches that I've only had one of. It's dangerous for me to have all of this food about, but I'm confident that I'll be able to avert any binges that might occur. I can't believe that I'm someone who gets full from eating a sandwich. I've also drank a lot of water today.
Dinner plan is brown rice, and frozen peas with teryaki sauce (6), lettuce and tomato and carrot salad with fat free italian dressing (2). I might add some turkey to the salad. I don't feel like I'm getting enough protein. If I add turkey thats 2 more points, leaving me with 8 for the day. I'll have a snack (IF hungry) of popcorn, cheese and crackers, or cottage cheese. No matter which I select, I'll still have points left over.
If the weather cooperates tomorrow, I'm going to try and start the c25k program. I really need to work my exercise in, and standing up for 6 hours doesn't cut it. I do know that my body should be burning more calories than it takes in, which I think that I am, but exercise is a good idea, even for those who aren't trying to lose weight.
Food Plan for Friday
B- Egg white omelet with a LITTLE cheese (5)
2 slices low calorie bread (1)
1 orange (1 or 0)
L- Turkey Sandwich (3)
D- Progresso Soup (3) and Saltines (2)
OR Smart Ones Fetticini Alfredo (6) and Frozen Broccoli (1)
S- Cheese and Crackers (3), Cottage Cheese (2), Yogurt (2) (only if hungry)
D- Skinny Cow Ice Cream Sandwich (3)
One more possible dinner combo is the Subway Fresh Fit meal. But I think I'm going to save those for the weekdays where I don't have enough time to pack food, but I need a meal.
I'm probably going to have to do some grocery shopping for this weekend. I don't have much food left, which is lame because I already spent so much this week. Being healthy costs!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Starting C25k tomorrow!
I'm going to start the couch to 5k program tomorrow and I'm terribly excited about it. I know that it'll be tough and I probably will want to die afterwards, but I will feel so good! It might even make working do-able.
I had a pretty bad day food-wise today. Well I did great until about 10, when I got back here from class. I ate a chef salad, which was great and filling. But then I had to eat a serving of cottage cheese with special K crackers. I ate about 10 points in the space of 15 minutes. I feel really heavy right now. I'm going to read for awhile before bed. And I need to make sure that I find some workout clothes. I'll try to do the workout tomorrow, saturday, and monday. Saturday, I'll have to do it before work, so I'll have to do it at 7ish. Okay night all.
I had a pretty bad day food-wise today. Well I did great until about 10, when I got back here from class. I ate a chef salad, which was great and filling. But then I had to eat a serving of cottage cheese with special K crackers. I ate about 10 points in the space of 15 minutes. I feel really heavy right now. I'm going to read for awhile before bed. And I need to make sure that I find some workout clothes. I'll try to do the workout tomorrow, saturday, and monday. Saturday, I'll have to do it before work, so I'll have to do it at 7ish. Okay night all.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Another Loss!!!
This week I was down 1.8 lbs! I'm pretty excited for it, I hope that If I can keep this up, I'll lose 2lbsish per week, which would be great. Although any loss that I get is moving me towards my goal.
Mini Goals for this Week:
Actually exercise!!! Do Dvd 3 times, mall walk as much as possible
0-1 Snacks after 8:30 (unless up past 12, then 0-1 after 9:30)
*Meeting H/W* Find 2 things that are enjoyable to do and give good feelings instead of eating!
I set both of these goals last week as well, I did fairly well on the snacking, but only exercised once. There were a couple of days where I ate 2 snacks in the evening, but one of them was zero points. This week, I really want to stick with that.
I really enjoyed the meeting that I went to tonight. I would really love to go to this one every week, the leader is fabulous. But the meeting is in the evening, meaning that I would have to eat 2 meals before it, and I ate incredibly lightly today, meaning that I was starved by the end of meeting, so I ate a Subway wrap, and baked lays. They were great, but I don't know if I'm comfortable with doing that on a weekly basis. I believe I'll go to my regular meeting next week and then make my decision.
Anyway, I really need to get to bed. I have to get up early(ish) to do a cost spreadsheet before work. I should have done it over the weekend. At least I won't have to get up at 4:45 again tomorrow, like I did today. And I only work 4 hours instead of 8. Okay, time to head to bed. Night all!
Mini Goals for this Week:
Actually exercise!!! Do Dvd 3 times, mall walk as much as possible
0-1 Snacks after 8:30 (unless up past 12, then 0-1 after 9:30)
*Meeting H/W* Find 2 things that are enjoyable to do and give good feelings instead of eating!
I set both of these goals last week as well, I did fairly well on the snacking, but only exercised once. There were a couple of days where I ate 2 snacks in the evening, but one of them was zero points. This week, I really want to stick with that.
I really enjoyed the meeting that I went to tonight. I would really love to go to this one every week, the leader is fabulous. But the meeting is in the evening, meaning that I would have to eat 2 meals before it, and I ate incredibly lightly today, meaning that I was starved by the end of meeting, so I ate a Subway wrap, and baked lays. They were great, but I don't know if I'm comfortable with doing that on a weekly basis. I believe I'll go to my regular meeting next week and then make my decision.
Anyway, I really need to get to bed. I have to get up early(ish) to do a cost spreadsheet before work. I should have done it over the weekend. At least I won't have to get up at 4:45 again tomorrow, like I did today. And I only work 4 hours instead of 8. Okay, time to head to bed. Night all!
Monday, March 16, 2009
So now officially...
This blog has more entries than my personal blog. Which I guess makes sense because I'm so obsessed with my weight loss right now. I have a weigh in tomorrow and I'm nervous about it again. Unlike last week where I said I was afraid I gained but I really knew that I lost, this week I feel so HUGE that I just know I gained. I haven't eaten over my points even one day this week. But I don't exercise, which everyone says is so important. SO scared. I really hope that I can manage to at least lose 1 lb. I was talking to my mom tonight and I want to buy a scale, just to have an idea of how I'm doing throughout the week. So that I don't have this extreme stress every week. If I lose this week I won't. I think that tomorrow before weigh in I'll only eat breakfast and a can of progresso soup. Theres a chicken santa fe one that is 1 point for a serving. I have no idea what to do anymore. I feel sick and lonely. I'm going to shower now. And eat my night time snack. And hit the sheets.
Up super early for work at the h20.
Up super early for work at the h20.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
It's been a long time!!
Well... two days... but I was writing 2 times a day, and now I feel like I need to get back on track. My trip went pretty well, I ate chicken Caesar salad, and it was great, and I think I stayed within my points. Today I ate cereal with a banana for breakfast, a bar before that, and a turkey pita with a bar for a late late lunch. I'm going to have a frozen dinner tonight. I can't decide between veggies in garlic sauce or fettuccine alfredo. I'm really hungry so I should decide soon.
I have two early days of work ahead of me. Tomorrow at 7, so I have to go to bed at 10 tonight, and Tuesday at 6, so I'll have to go to bed at 9. Then Wednesday I don't have to work until 10, Thursday at noon, and Friday at noon, then two more early days Saturday and Sunday. I'm absolutely terrified about this hellish week. Including two shifts at my old job. Eek. That place wreaks havoc on my self control. I'm in a self imposed hell. Okay, I'm going to read and relax until bed. I'm going to need this day off when it comes to next weekend and I'm exhausted.
Okay, time for dinner.
I have two early days of work ahead of me. Tomorrow at 7, so I have to go to bed at 10 tonight, and Tuesday at 6, so I'll have to go to bed at 9. Then Wednesday I don't have to work until 10, Thursday at noon, and Friday at noon, then two more early days Saturday and Sunday. I'm absolutely terrified about this hellish week. Including two shifts at my old job. Eek. That place wreaks havoc on my self control. I'm in a self imposed hell. Okay, I'm going to read and relax until bed. I'm going to need this day off when it comes to next weekend and I'm exhausted.
Okay, time for dinner.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Can't tell if I'm hungry.
My stomach hurts. :-/ I really should eat something else, but nothing at all is really appealing to me except meal like stuff. I could go for a Smart Ones, and I totally have the points for it, but I don't want to do that. I think I'll eat some popcorn and a chewy bar because I'm having crazy sugar cravings lately. Well not really, it's just because there were some yummy looking brownies at work today, but I resisted. We'll see how I do tomorrow. I really don't want to work tomorrow, but since I know that I have no choice. At least tomorrow night I'm going down to Boston. Nana is making chicken ceasar salad just for me, which is so nice of her, but I really can't eat cheese, croutons or dressing. I'm going to have to practice some serious restraint. And I'll bring some bars with me, to curb hunger.
Tomorrow for breakfast I'm going to have some cheerios at work, then for lunch I'll have a turkey pita (provided I can avoid eating it tonight), and for dinner, the salad.
Sunday, for breakfast, I'll have a small amount of whatever they're having, cereal if I can wrangle it. Lunch the same. And dinner will probably be veggies and popcorn. I'm going to have to do amazingly well on monday to make up for this weekend before weigh in. I will just die if I gain on my second week. Well I'm doing great for today, I'll easily have tons of points left over, and maybe that will make up for me being sucky this weekend.
Have I mentioned how much I hate the smell of whatever the heck it is my roommate seems to feel the need to drench herself with every time she leaves the room. To get drunk. And try to have sex. With a guy who calls himself dragon.
Sorry ^^^ pointless rant.
Tomorrow for breakfast I'm going to have some cheerios at work, then for lunch I'll have a turkey pita (provided I can avoid eating it tonight), and for dinner, the salad.
Sunday, for breakfast, I'll have a small amount of whatever they're having, cereal if I can wrangle it. Lunch the same. And dinner will probably be veggies and popcorn. I'm going to have to do amazingly well on monday to make up for this weekend before weigh in. I will just die if I gain on my second week. Well I'm doing great for today, I'll easily have tons of points left over, and maybe that will make up for me being sucky this weekend.
Have I mentioned how much I hate the smell of whatever the heck it is my roommate seems to feel the need to drench herself with every time she leaves the room. To get drunk. And try to have sex. With a guy who calls himself dragon.
Sorry ^^^ pointless rant.
Just habit I suppose...
I guess I don't really have a reason to be writing in here today. I feel huge and I don't know why. I desperately want my egg white omelet, but I'm so uneasy about the cheese. I guess in my mind I can't really tell the difference between 1/4 and 1/2 cup, or even 3/4. I'm fairly certain it's not a whole cup. And it tastes so good, I'm sure it's not reduced fat. I think I just need to start eating my own breakfasts. I think I'll get some tupperware that works for cooking eggs and I'll make egg pitas in the morning. This being said, I'm going to eat an omelet this morning. I don't know what it is, but I've been feeling pretty full throughout the day. I didn't even need my late afternoon snack yesterday. I mean I was absolutely starved when it came dinner time, but I filled up on veggies and a lean cuisine. I've decided to skip going to the cafeteria for breakfast and instead just have a live active bar! I really should start my paper this morning anyway.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Hello World!
I felt really good about myself today. I did the 1/2 hour mall walk, actually I only walked around the mall for 20 or so minutes, then I walked outside to my car. I think I need to add one more store to my circuit or walk around the mall the opposite way so that I don't feel like I have to add on steps to get to 30 minutes. After though, my feet hurt SO bad! I thought I had a blister, but I don't think so. Tomorrow I'm going to tighten up the laces on my shoes so my feet don't swim around in them. I don't feel amazing, but I feel good about myself. For breakfast, I ate an eggwhite omelet with cheese, and an orange, and two slices of low calorie bread. I had an orange for my snack, Actually for both of my snacks. 3 Oranges today. I don't know what that means for my sugar intake, but it's all good. For lunch I had a turkey sandwich and crackers, and for dinner I had green beans and a lean cuisine fettucini alfredo. I'll probably have a bag of popcorn for a snack. I didn't have enough veggies today.
I was proud of myself for bringing a Live Active bar to work with me, and not eating it. I also didn't bring home a sourdough roll, which I REALLY wanted. Also there were a lot of delicious left over food items, and I didn't bring any of them home. Especially the blueberry cream cheese bars... They have been calling my name for 2 days! Also, I haven't eaten any of the samples in days! Even when there was some potato soup on my finger, I didn't lick it off. Even though I desperately wanted to.
Tomorrow, ah tomorrow. I'm going to do my omelet for breakfast, with a pita and maybe an apple or orange. Lunch is a turkey pita and crackers. Dinner will probably be a stirfry. I have to grocery shop tomorrow, unless I want another lean cuisine. I might just buy the ingredients for the stir fry, brown rice and frozen peas and if I can find some grilled chicken. I wonder if they sell it frozen? I'm going to look for teryaki sauce instead of marinade, there might be less salt. Snacks will be, an orange or two, and a fiber bar if I can't resist. A bag of popcorn after dinner if I can.
I was proud of myself for bringing a Live Active bar to work with me, and not eating it. I also didn't bring home a sourdough roll, which I REALLY wanted. Also there were a lot of delicious left over food items, and I didn't bring any of them home. Especially the blueberry cream cheese bars... They have been calling my name for 2 days! Also, I haven't eaten any of the samples in days! Even when there was some potato soup on my finger, I didn't lick it off. Even though I desperately wanted to.
Tomorrow, ah tomorrow. I'm going to do my omelet for breakfast, with a pita and maybe an apple or orange. Lunch is a turkey pita and crackers. Dinner will probably be a stirfry. I have to grocery shop tomorrow, unless I want another lean cuisine. I might just buy the ingredients for the stir fry, brown rice and frozen peas and if I can find some grilled chicken. I wonder if they sell it frozen? I'm going to look for teryaki sauce instead of marinade, there might be less salt. Snacks will be, an orange or two, and a fiber bar if I can't resist. A bag of popcorn after dinner if I can.
Well... I didn't binge!
I ate several pickle slices and a few green beans, but what I really wanted was a lean cuisine, and I refrained. After my pickle slices, I brushed my teeth and went to bed. I was exhausted anyway, but I was SO proud of myself. I'm not going to make my goal this week now, but it's far better than last week, when I would have ten points left and eat, a bar, a sandwich, and a bag of popcorn. I'm fairly obsessed with food lately. I know exactly how many points most of my favorite foods have, except the ones I know I can eat anymore, like bagels with cream cheese. I know that the mornings of having a bagel every day are gone, and while it's sad, I haven't found myself tempted to stop in to dunkin donuts, like I was when I was 'trying' to eat better. I would set limits for myself on when I could go, and then I would break them for no real reason. Well, I'm going to get dressed and head to the cafeteria for an egg white omelet, then to the mall walk, then to work. Maybe it won't suck today... hahahaha!
I'll probably update again later, while I'm avoiding writing my strategic management paper!
Oh and lunch plan is typical, Turkey pita, crackers. Orange and fiber bar for snacks. Since breakfast is so late today I might have to tweak my lunch time a bit. Snack at 12 maybe, and lunch at 2:30, one more snack at 5 then dinner at 7:30? Works for me!
I'll probably update again later, while I'm avoiding writing my strategic management paper!
Oh and lunch plan is typical, Turkey pita, crackers. Orange and fiber bar for snacks. Since breakfast is so late today I might have to tweak my lunch time a bit. Snack at 12 maybe, and lunch at 2:30, one more snack at 5 then dinner at 7:30? Works for me!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Coughing
I'm just sitting here coughing, attempting to lose my voice so I don't have to work tomorrow. I know it's stupid. And it's not like I have any money so I can't do any grocery shopping, and even though I have some food, I don't really care to eat it. Of course if they do make me work tomorrow, I'm going to be even more miserable. Okay, the coughing stops now.
So I ate within my points today. And I'm still starving. So hungry. But I don't need any food. I really don't have any reason to eat. But I also don't have any reason not to. There's no point to this entry, and I'm feeling pretty down. I told my boss today that I needed less hours, because I'm getting too stressed. I'm losing my mind with everything that I have going on. Okay. I guess I'm going to do something. I'm going to eat some pickles maybe. Although sodium might be the opposite of what I want. I have 5 points left i think. Okay. I feel a binge. oh no.
So I ate within my points today. And I'm still starving. So hungry. But I don't need any food. I really don't have any reason to eat. But I also don't have any reason not to. There's no point to this entry, and I'm feeling pretty down. I told my boss today that I needed less hours, because I'm getting too stressed. I'm losing my mind with everything that I have going on. Okay. I guess I'm going to do something. I'm going to eat some pickles maybe. Although sodium might be the opposite of what I want. I have 5 points left i think. Okay. I feel a binge. oh no.
So I don't have much time...
But I really wanted to get an update in before I have to pack lunch and head to work. I really should pack dinner today too. Well as I said, I lost 1.4 lbs on my first weigh in and when I saw the number I was devastated and I just wanted to give up then and there. But after thinking about it, and posting on the 3fc forum and talking with my mom, I've decided that even if my weight loss journey isn't as speedy as some, I still am going to stick with it. This disappointment has been great for me. I realize that I can have an emotional day and still stick with my food plan. I had a great turkey pita for lunch yesterday, and I tried a hormel compleats meal, one of the low calorie ones, for dinner. Let's just say I won't be doing that again. I'm trying to use up more of my points during the day so that I have less to snack late at night! Or I'm just leaving points untouched. I eat every 2-3 hours, so I don't think that there is a problem with my metabolism... I guess we'll see, I just have to stick to it and log everything. Yesterday at work, my boss got a sample of this cinnamon roll... oh it smelled delish, and I managed to resist it. Today we're sampling spinach and cheese croissants, so that is going to be a huge challenge for me, but I think I'll succeed. I have a cost test this afternoon that I'm really nervous about and that I haven't studied nearly enough for, but it's only worth 10% of my grade, so even if I do poorly, it won't affect me too much.
Well I should go pack my lunch and something for dinner as well. It's doing some weird precip thing outside so I want to give myself a little extra time to get to work, although I think that I may be eating into it by blogging. I'll probably have another entry later, after my cost exam... WISH ME LUCK!
Well I should go pack my lunch and something for dinner as well. It's doing some weird precip thing outside so I want to give myself a little extra time to get to work, although I think that I may be eating into it by blogging. I'll probably have another entry later, after my cost exam... WISH ME LUCK!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Weigh In Day....
I'm SO nervous. What if I haven't lost a damned thing? I've been going this program all week, but I've only exercised once. I don't even want to eat breakfast I'm so nervous, but I know I have to. I'll write another entry after I go. I'm literally more nervous than I was before my exam yesterday. Eeek!
Monday, March 9, 2009
Monday
Tomorrow is my first REAL weigh in, to see if I've lost weight. I'm so scared that I didn't lose anything or that I gained. I followed the program but I didn't eat all of my points every day, so I'm a little worried about that. I have been trying to eat every few hours to keep my metabolism up. I guess we'll just have to see. I haven't eaten dinner yet, and I'm so tempted not to, just have a pre-weigh in jump start.
I did a little bit of grocery shopping today, but I need to get perishables. I couldn't get them today because I had school so I had to leave the stuff in the car and I was too tired on the way back. I need to get more bread, tomatoes, frozen peas and broccoli, tupperware, turkey, pickles, and I think that's all I really need. I stopped at the school store today and grabbed 2 lean cuisines and a little pack of saltines. I tried one of the WW low point soups yesterday and it was really good, but I definitely enjoy soup more when I have crackers. I can have 5 for one point, so if I have 10 crackers and a low point can of soup, that's a five point, filling, meal. I was stuffed last night after the can of soup and sandwich. I wonder if my stomach is starting to shrink. The hunger monster hasn't been as noticable the past two or so days. Today I ate an egg white omelet with tomato (FINALLY), with an english muffin and an apple for breakfast, I think it was 5 points. Then I had a live active bar for 2, and a fiber bar for 2, then I had a bag of baked doritos, 3 but so worth it! And, it took me fifteen minutes to eat. This is something that would have taken me fifteen to eat along with a sandwich and a vitamin water before. I wasn't full afterwards but I was definitely satisfied. And that was all I ate for lunch. One bar was at 10:15 and the other at 2:15, the chips were around 12:45. Then just now, I had some cherry tomatoes and a couple broccoli heads, I counted them at one, but they might well have been more, I'm going to look it up in my book.
I skipped out on the movie tonight due to snow. I kinda wish that I hadn't, but I was really worried about the forecast at the time. Oh well, I was in such a hungry mood earlier that I probably would have ordered chicken tenders and hoped that my weight loss earlier in the week would cancel it out. I'm such a loser. I'm trying so hard to decide whether to eat anything tonight. I have 14-15 points left today. Sandwich? Soup? Lean Cuisine?
I'm so so confused about what is best. I know I want popcorn tonight. I think a soup. No, an LC. Soup. Yes that's the one. Soup.
I did a little bit of grocery shopping today, but I need to get perishables. I couldn't get them today because I had school so I had to leave the stuff in the car and I was too tired on the way back. I need to get more bread, tomatoes, frozen peas and broccoli, tupperware, turkey, pickles, and I think that's all I really need. I stopped at the school store today and grabbed 2 lean cuisines and a little pack of saltines. I tried one of the WW low point soups yesterday and it was really good, but I definitely enjoy soup more when I have crackers. I can have 5 for one point, so if I have 10 crackers and a low point can of soup, that's a five point, filling, meal. I was stuffed last night after the can of soup and sandwich. I wonder if my stomach is starting to shrink. The hunger monster hasn't been as noticable the past two or so days. Today I ate an egg white omelet with tomato (FINALLY), with an english muffin and an apple for breakfast, I think it was 5 points. Then I had a live active bar for 2, and a fiber bar for 2, then I had a bag of baked doritos, 3 but so worth it! And, it took me fifteen minutes to eat. This is something that would have taken me fifteen to eat along with a sandwich and a vitamin water before. I wasn't full afterwards but I was definitely satisfied. And that was all I ate for lunch. One bar was at 10:15 and the other at 2:15, the chips were around 12:45. Then just now, I had some cherry tomatoes and a couple broccoli heads, I counted them at one, but they might well have been more, I'm going to look it up in my book.
I skipped out on the movie tonight due to snow. I kinda wish that I hadn't, but I was really worried about the forecast at the time. Oh well, I was in such a hungry mood earlier that I probably would have ordered chicken tenders and hoped that my weight loss earlier in the week would cancel it out. I'm such a loser. I'm trying so hard to decide whether to eat anything tonight. I have 14-15 points left today. Sandwich? Soup? Lean Cuisine?
I'm so so confused about what is best. I know I want popcorn tonight. I think a soup. No, an LC. Soup. Yes that's the one. Soup.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Full and Happy.
I ate exactly what I'd planned to, as stated in an earlier entry with the addition of some frozen green beans and spray butter. The sandwich and soup REALLY filled me up. I ate wicked fast though, because I wanted the soup to still be hot when I ate it, and by the end it had already started to cool. I think next time I'll heat up half at a time and eat it that way. The sandwich was great even though I didn't cut up tomatoes for it. The green beans were okay, but not great. I wish I wasn't afraid of can openers because I want to eat canned green beans. I don't even need butter on those, just snack on them. Well my plan for the rest of the day is to write a paper, or at least start it, try to study for at least another half hour, and I'll eat a cut up tomato with italian dressing, and a bag of popcorn, and if this craving for sweets doesn't go away I'll have to have another Chewy Bar. I might even add butter to the popcorn like I used to. I also made my grocery list for tomorrow. I have to get up EARLY and get my shopping done before 8. At 8, I'll head in to the city and study for my test until test time. After the test I'll finish my paper and start cost studying? Then I have to go see a finance speaker for 45 minutes, then I have to run straight to the theater to meet with a friend.
My food plan for tomorrow is...
Breakfast-- Last yogurt smoothie and Fiber One bar on the way to the grocery store so I'm not too hungry while I'm shopping.
Lunch-- Turkey pita and baked chips from the kiosk.
Snacks-- Two Fiber One bars to be distributed through the day (one at 10 AM, one at 3 PM)
Dinner-- At the theater, Secret Garden Salad with grilled chicken (count as 10 points)
If ABSOLUTELY unavoidable, pre dinner snack of veggies.
WEIGH IN TUESDAY MORNING!!!
I'll try to post tomorrow, but as you can see, I have the craziest day ahead. Even though I'm dreading the points cost, I'm really excited to see he's just not that into you again. It was SO cute! Okay I think I'm going to go start that paper of mine. No food while I'm writing it!!!
My food plan for tomorrow is...
Breakfast-- Last yogurt smoothie and Fiber One bar on the way to the grocery store so I'm not too hungry while I'm shopping.
Lunch-- Turkey pita and baked chips from the kiosk.
Snacks-- Two Fiber One bars to be distributed through the day (one at 10 AM, one at 3 PM)
Dinner-- At the theater, Secret Garden Salad with grilled chicken (count as 10 points)
If ABSOLUTELY unavoidable, pre dinner snack of veggies.
WEIGH IN TUESDAY MORNING!!!
I'll try to post tomorrow, but as you can see, I have the craziest day ahead. Even though I'm dreading the points cost, I'm really excited to see he's just not that into you again. It was SO cute! Okay I think I'm going to go start that paper of mine. No food while I'm writing it!!!
Bad Mamajama!
On a happy note: After my shower today I put on an outfit that is a little tight and looked in the mirror and wasn't sickened by what I saw!!!
Also, I got up CRAZY late today, and not just because of DST so I had 'breakfast' at about 11:30. I had my last probiotic yogurt, and a Chewy bar. I'm a little hungry so I'm going to have some carrot sticks in a few minutes. I probably won't eat lunch today, meaning I'll be WAY under my points. For dinner I'm going to have the meal I had planned on for lunch, a turkey sandwich (or pita), and a can of WW 0 point/serving soups. Since I'm having 2 servings I'm going to count it for at least one point, maybe two.
Also, I got up CRAZY late today, and not just because of DST so I had 'breakfast' at about 11:30. I had my last probiotic yogurt, and a Chewy bar. I'm a little hungry so I'm going to have some carrot sticks in a few minutes. I probably won't eat lunch today, meaning I'll be WAY under my points. For dinner I'm going to have the meal I had planned on for lunch, a turkey sandwich (or pita), and a can of WW 0 point/serving soups. Since I'm having 2 servings I'm going to count it for at least one point, maybe two.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Evening
I'm doing GREAT today! I think I already discussed my breakfast, well for lunch I had 2 slices of cantelope, 1 slice watermelon, 1 apple, and about a cup of peas and carrots. I then went shopping with my friend Jessica. We went to the mall which was pretty fun and we also went to starbucks. Instead of getting a frappucino like I normally would with her, I got a 0 point black iced coffee. I got back at about 4 and ate a granola bar at about 4:45. Then about 15 minutes ago, I had some frozen broccoli with fahita chicken and teryaki sauce. It came to 4 points, 2 for the broc, 2 for the chicken. It was really good. I have the rest of the bag of broccoli and I'll pour some smart ones mac and cheese on top of it to eat later. I'll probably eat again at 7. I might have pickles and tomatos later. I have a lovely toothache right now so I'm going to go floss. I feel great today about my lifestyle change. I've been reading a lot of posts on the 3fc forum as well which makes me feel good. The posters there are all going through the same things that I am. Well I have 4 new books that I bought at the mall today. I'm going to read for awhile and eat later.
Saturday...
Well it's almost 10AM Saturday morning. I already ate my breakfast, a yogurt cup (which was 3 points!!! I didn't throw them out because I thought they'd be less) and a fiber bar. These fiber bars are amazing, whenever I go anywhere I throw one in my purse and if/when I get hungry I just down it. Only 2 points and they're pretty filling. I'm waiting on a text from my friend to see if she wants to go to the bank with me... There isn't much to do around here lol. If she does, we might go to brunch afterward, which would be great with me, as all I've been craving lately is an eggwhite omelet with tomato and peppers. I also would like to take some veggies back with me to my dorm room. I have salad dressing and I really want to use it!!! If she doesn't text me, I still have to go though, it will just be harder to resist Starbucks and Dunkin Donuts. And yes, I used to stop at both. One for food another for beverage.
Even though I ate about an hour ago, I'm already getting hungry. I wonder when I won't feel hungry ALL the time anymore? It's been getting better every day, it's true. I'm not sure how things like this work, but I'm pretty sure my stomach has expanded to a crazy level, and now it's shrinking again. Like, when I was in my binging phases, I could eat an ENTIRE BOX of macaroni and cheese and not even be full. There was a long time that I forgot what being hungry felt like because I would eat when I was satisfied. Not anymore. This past week has been such a learning experience for me. About my own body, if nothing else. I don't feel deprived at all, I feel amazing. I plan my meals out ahead of time, and I look forward to them, but I don't plan my life around them.
Well my friend just texted me so off to the bank I go! I'll probably be writing again several more times this weekend alone. I need the reminder of why I'm not going to be eating TONS and drinking more!!!
Even though I ate about an hour ago, I'm already getting hungry. I wonder when I won't feel hungry ALL the time anymore? It's been getting better every day, it's true. I'm not sure how things like this work, but I'm pretty sure my stomach has expanded to a crazy level, and now it's shrinking again. Like, when I was in my binging phases, I could eat an ENTIRE BOX of macaroni and cheese and not even be full. There was a long time that I forgot what being hungry felt like because I would eat when I was satisfied. Not anymore. This past week has been such a learning experience for me. About my own body, if nothing else. I don't feel deprived at all, I feel amazing. I plan my meals out ahead of time, and I look forward to them, but I don't plan my life around them.
Well my friend just texted me so off to the bank I go! I'll probably be writing again several more times this weekend alone. I need the reminder of why I'm not going to be eating TONS and drinking more!!!
Friday, March 6, 2009
Another Day.
Well I've been blogging in this WLB for 4 days now. I'm constantly hungry still, but not in a bad mood. Except at work, which I'm really hating right now. But that's neither here nor there. I was really good today. I was planning on an omelet for breakfast, egg white with tomato and pepper. But there wasn't any parking by the cafeteria and I was a little late anyway so I stopped at Hannafords on my way to work and picked up some granola bars and pitas. I had a pita with turkey, tomato, and pickles for lunch. It was fantastic, I heated it up on the panini grill with mustard. For breakfast, I had one granola bar, some pom tea, and two pieces of low cal bread. Then I ate 2 fiber bars at long intervals at work to keep my metabolism up. I had the same brown rice, frozen pea, chicken, teryaki mix for dinner tonight, along with 10 baby carrots and spray ranch. Now I'm a little hungry again. I have a few different options for snacks, some 94% popcorn, some more carrot sticks, pickle slices with tomato, a grapefruit, or another fiber bar. I'll probably have some popcorn and maybe pickle slices and a roma tomato. Or... maybe two tomatoes with italian dressing.
It's going to be hard now, it's the weekend. I don't know how I'm going to make it. I have no plans at all, and I REALLY don't want to end up sitting around and eating all weekend. But I need to study, which means that I can't go out to Borders to just sit and read. Tomorrow morning I'm going to the bank, hopefully with some friends. If I can't go with my friends then it's going to be hard not to stop at Starbucks and get a Frapuccino. They're so yummy. Those, along with bagels and cream cheese are my true weaknesses. I can almost feel the texture of the cream cheese in my mouth. Maybe I should eat something. Or maybe not. I don't know how to handle this kind of thing. I have no experience with resisting temptation. I did read a quote on a weight loss success article on a man named Charles
"It is not a question of willpower. I have none of that. It is a question of willingness. What are you willing to do to reach your goals?" -Charles Scott.
Well Mr. Scott, I'm willing to do anything at all. I will resist the bagels, frappucinos, chinese food, pasta, and fried food. I want to be thin. I want to be healthy. Most of all, I want to look in the mirror and be proud of the girl I see looking back at me. I don't want her to feel embarrassed to go out in public anymore. I want my life back.
It's going to be hard now, it's the weekend. I don't know how I'm going to make it. I have no plans at all, and I REALLY don't want to end up sitting around and eating all weekend. But I need to study, which means that I can't go out to Borders to just sit and read. Tomorrow morning I'm going to the bank, hopefully with some friends. If I can't go with my friends then it's going to be hard not to stop at Starbucks and get a Frapuccino. They're so yummy. Those, along with bagels and cream cheese are my true weaknesses. I can almost feel the texture of the cream cheese in my mouth. Maybe I should eat something. Or maybe not. I don't know how to handle this kind of thing. I have no experience with resisting temptation. I did read a quote on a weight loss success article on a man named Charles
"It is not a question of willpower. I have none of that. It is a question of willingness. What are you willing to do to reach your goals?" -Charles Scott.
Well Mr. Scott, I'm willing to do anything at all. I will resist the bagels, frappucinos, chinese food, pasta, and fried food. I want to be thin. I want to be healthy. Most of all, I want to look in the mirror and be proud of the girl I see looking back at me. I don't want her to feel embarrassed to go out in public anymore. I want my life back.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Oh By the Way
I said in my first post that I'd post my stats.
Weight: 219 lbs
Top healthy weight: 169
Goal Weight: 145
BMI: 32.3
Goal BMI: 21.4
Weight: 219 lbs
Top healthy weight: 169
Goal Weight: 145
BMI: 32.3
Goal BMI: 21.4
- Underweight = BMI <18.5
- Normal weight = BMI 18.5-24.9
- Overweight = BMI 25-29.9
- Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater
Day three...
Well today has gone quite well so far. Food wise anyhow lol. Work is crap as usual, I'm getting so sick of my coworkers. But that's fodder for my personal blog. I had to open the shop this morning, which means I had to leave by 5:30 AM. I decided what I was going to have for breakfast last night, a peach yogurt smoothie, cheerios, and a fiber bar. When I got to work, I decided to blend some frozen peaches into my smoothie which added an extra point to it, but got me one of my fruits for the day, and made the smoothie a little thicker and more delicious. I then measured out my cheerios and half a cup of skim milk. It was a great breakfast, not as filling as my usual bagel and cream cheese with orange juice, but I felt a lot better about myself. I saved the fiber bar and ate it at about 9:30, to stave off hunger pangs which might have caused me to sample soup or smoothies. I also set up my sandwich again for today, exactly the same as yesterdays, a small amount of turkey, low cal bread, tomato, pickle and mustard. I ate it at about 11:30. It was fantastic, I've been eating way too many of them. When I left work at 2, I stopped at Shaws to pick up some meal items for dinner. I also bought some more fiber bars and I ate one on the drive back to the dorm because I was getting hungry. I was still hungry later, at maybe 4, 4:30 and had 10 baby carrot sticks and a sandwich (same as above except no turkey). Then I surfed the 3fc forum for awhile, which is turning out to be a GREAT motivator. The girls there are all really sweet and it's really fun to see before and after pictures and read weight loss stories. I found a thread about a workout dvd by Jillian Michaels, the biggest loser trainer. They were really into it, and I started to get motivated to excercise. I have a Chris Freytag workout dvd so I did one section of it, which led to about 20 minutes of working out. Tomorrow I'm going to try for 2 sections, and next week I hope to get all three. Anyway, even 20 minutes is better than nothing, which is what I have been doing for years now.
Today was good in that, I didn't feel hungry all day like I did yesterday. I mean, there were definitely times when I was really hungry, but nothing like yesterday. I'm wondering if I'm psyching myself up about being hungry, because before my lifestyle change, I would typically eat a bagel and cream cheese, or an egg and cheese sandwich from DDs for breakfast. Then I wouldn't eat, except bites and tastes, until I had a sandwich between 2 and 4. I then wouldn't eat until later, when I would gorge on everything until I sensed my roommate coming home. I can't eat in front of her. Shes 100 lbs soaking wet, I weigh probably twice what she does. And she never eats in the room, except chips and snacks. I only eat in the room, I don't have time for the cafeteria. But she's gone for the night, so I will feel better about the dinner I'm about to eat.
Now I'm going to get dinner ready. I'm going to have a serving of brown rice, some pre-cooked salad chicken, peas, and teryaki sauce. It's 5-6 points for the whole thing, and I still have 14 points left. I'll probably eat some popcorn and maybe more tomatoes and carrots. I don't know yet. I still need to heat up everything. I'll see how hungry I am after I finish the rice dish.
I don't know if I want to use all my points today or not. Anyway, it's been a good day, and hopefully tomorrow will be as well. The weekend is going to be tough. I should preplan my meals.
Today was good in that, I didn't feel hungry all day like I did yesterday. I mean, there were definitely times when I was really hungry, but nothing like yesterday. I'm wondering if I'm psyching myself up about being hungry, because before my lifestyle change, I would typically eat a bagel and cream cheese, or an egg and cheese sandwich from DDs for breakfast. Then I wouldn't eat, except bites and tastes, until I had a sandwich between 2 and 4. I then wouldn't eat until later, when I would gorge on everything until I sensed my roommate coming home. I can't eat in front of her. Shes 100 lbs soaking wet, I weigh probably twice what she does. And she never eats in the room, except chips and snacks. I only eat in the room, I don't have time for the cafeteria. But she's gone for the night, so I will feel better about the dinner I'm about to eat.
Now I'm going to get dinner ready. I'm going to have a serving of brown rice, some pre-cooked salad chicken, peas, and teryaki sauce. It's 5-6 points for the whole thing, and I still have 14 points left. I'll probably eat some popcorn and maybe more tomatoes and carrots. I don't know yet. I still need to heat up everything. I'll see how hungry I am after I finish the rice dish.
I don't know if I want to use all my points today or not. Anyway, it's been a good day, and hopefully tomorrow will be as well. The weekend is going to be tough. I should preplan my meals.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
I only have a few minutes but...
I just want to give a quick update on day one (yesterday). I went to my first meeting yesterday and it went great! I had a really good time and everyone seems so nice! Most of them are really old, but I love that. The meeting leader is really nice and she seems like the type of person who wants to really help people lose weight. I had trouble yesterday, I ate a really big breakfast, as kind of a last meal which I didn't exactly 'point out' but I used 15 points for it which is half of my daily allowance. I know that we're supposed to use all of our points every day, but I remember that my mom didn't when she did it. I'm going to try to stick under 25 a day. I'm not going to use my Weekly Points Allowance (WPA) as far as I can avoid it. This morning I went grocery shopping and bought frozen steam vegetables, and some sandwich fixings, and carrots and some breakfast food. I ate a light yogurt smoothie and a fiber one bar for breakfast this morning. The fiber bars are delish, I got chocolate mocha. They sell them at the kiosk in my classroom building so I might buy another one for dinner, because today is my long day and I won't have time to eat a real meal in between my classes. Well I'm going to go pack a sandwich for lunch and head to work.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Day One
Well as I mention occasionally on my personal blog, I have battled a lifelong weight problem. The first time I remember realizing I was overweight was when I was 10 and wondered why the other girls in my school were skinner than me, and why their clothes looked nicer than mine. I spent hours looking in the mirror trying to figure out what was wrong with me. My first diet was when I was 13, my mother had recently joined Weight Watchers and I followed the program for awhile. It was hard to stick to and by 14 I gave up. I dieted off and on through high school and finally lost about 25 pounds one summer on Atkins. I was 16. It stayed off for a few months but by graduation I had gained it back. Through my college years I have been uncomfortable with my weight, extremely so, but I have had trouble dieting. I tried drinking nothing but water, and stuck to it for a month. I discovered alcohol, and gained weight from weekly drinking binges. I ate 6 meals a day, large fattening meals, filled with preservatives. I ate 3 servings of pasta for dinner, regularly. I ate microwaved burritos with heaps of cheese melted on top. Suffice it to say, I overeat, and grossly. I'm so determined now. I don't know what my weight is, but I'm going to have to weigh myself to set up goals. My final goal weight is 145. Lower than I've been since I was 13. The lowest I remember weighing in at in my adult life is 169. I'll set mini-goals, and I'll remind myself of my goals whenever I see myself slipping. I'm going to join weight watchers and follow the program. My mother lost 45 pounds on it, 8 years ago, and has kept it off, and lost even more since. I'm going to keep this blog as motivation for myself, and to help other 20 something girls who are struggling with the same problems that I am.
Food Intake thus far (pre-diet)
One Burrito- Bean and Cheese, extra cheese
Two Pierogies- extra Cheese
One Serving Cheerios
One small bag Baked Lays
Small Bag Peanut M&Ms
Small Bag M&M Cookies
One Diet Pepsi
One packet Crystal Light Tea
And my plan for dinner is 2 more pierogies with cheese, One Can Weight Watchers soup and oyster crackers, and one bag weight watchers popcorn
Tonight I'm going to throw away the rest of my unhealthy food. And tomorrow I'm going to my first meeting. I'll post my stats and goals when I'm weighed and have my BMI taken.
Food Intake thus far (pre-diet)
One Burrito- Bean and Cheese, extra cheese
Two Pierogies- extra Cheese
One Serving Cheerios
One small bag Baked Lays
Small Bag Peanut M&Ms
Small Bag M&M Cookies
One Diet Pepsi
One packet Crystal Light Tea
And my plan for dinner is 2 more pierogies with cheese, One Can Weight Watchers soup and oyster crackers, and one bag weight watchers popcorn
Tonight I'm going to throw away the rest of my unhealthy food. And tomorrow I'm going to my first meeting. I'll post my stats and goals when I'm weighed and have my BMI taken.
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